When I was younger, I did not understand that the Spirit and I were one. I only knew that I longed to know the will of the Spirit, to be filled with the Spirit, and to love myself and others as the Spirit loved me. So, like a thirsty man in the desert, I have searched oasis after oasis, followed many “narrow pathways” that promised me living water. Being lead to the wells, I drank deeply, but never was my thirst quenched, and never did the water come freely. I became disillusioned and was left tired and empty. My thirst is unquenched. Leaving my body, soul and spirit depleted.
The Search For Living Water
Year after year I searched, for the Spirit, the living water that would quench my spiritual thirst. Days turned into years, years into decades in this spiritual desert, I would never give up, until I died. Nothing could stop me, so I continued to search for that “living water,” drinking from the sickly wells, followed by one disappointment after another until I could no longer go on. My body in a state of complete depletion, and yet the thirst was still there, but being too weak, all I could do was to lay quietly and let my body, mind, and soul be as they were, and accept my condition and put my fate in the hands of the universe. I rested and even feel asleep. When I awoke, I looked into the silence of the desert, and like a mirage shimmering out of desert heat I saw a figure, a form, a man walking on the heatwaves, he was beautiful, and had a flask of water strung across his chest. He came to me, knelt at my side, gently lifted my head, put the drink to my lips, and for the first time in my life’s journey, living water flowed across my lips, and my strength was restored. I looked deeply into his eyes and thanked him for coming to me when I had given up all hope. He only said it is good that you have given yourself up. Now rest, relax, be quiet, knowing I AM with you, for we are one, and I am you. I will always be with you in this world without end.
No More Searching
I marvel, I thirst no more. My thirst is quenched, I AM Spirit in Spirit, and so I relax in real knowing that I AM one with the Spirit.
How is it possible that only when I gave up altogether and felt I had nothing, that I gained everything? My years in the desert are but a fading memory, the agonizing search, so many false promises. Only when I allowed the stillness of exhaustion to seep into my entire being, did I surrender to what was already within and my thirst was no more.
You Are So Loved… You Are Never Alone
I hope my story, helps you on your life’s journey. Maybe you will not have to suffer the empty deserts, or narrow pathways leading to sickly wells. It was only when I reached the point of exhaustion, which I was able to relax and let go indeed.
Robert C. Morgan “Bobby”